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For the main character of Sabri Bebawi God On Trial, each moment brings a torment of some kind. The character is extremely intelligent and yet disturbed by thoughts that never cease, as well as memories that evoke strong responses, eventually leading to a confusion of time and current reality. Indeed, as time progresses, the confusion grows worse; his reality rarely mergesFor the main character of Sabri Bebawi God On Trial, each moment brings a torment of some kind. The character is extremely intelligent and yet disturbed by thoughts that never cease, as well as memories that evoke strong responses, eventually leading to a confusion of time and current reality. Indeed, as time progresses, the confusion grows worse; his reality rarely merges with truth. Paranoia and hallucinations take over his mind and thoughts, provoking dangerous responses on his part.As this deterioration advances, his connection with his wife becomes tenuous in that she is not able to understand the dimensions of his personal reality. He may have little intellectual connection with his wife, but one portion of his thoughts remains largely coherent. In an attempt to gain some recompense for his suffering – and possibly to protect others from similar problems – he wishes to put God on trial. With little sleep or rest, he begins to gather the data needed for such a task even as his life begins to fall apart. His rage against God takes on new proportions as he develops the case; reviewing Holy Scripture, he in fact finds God culpable in the most heinous of crimes against humanity. The case envelops his imaginings, isolating him from those who care about him most.This disturbed man is presented in Bebawi novel as a remarkably compassionate person who has experienced the worst of life in his various ailments. He is certainly representative of much of the reader’s own private questionings of God and the trials that are faced by even the most innocent. Even in the midst of obvious hallucinations, he provides a lucid argument against God, definitely not the ravings of a madman.And yet mental illness is one of his problems, the most prominent one during the action of the novel. Following his thoughts through various mental states, the writing in Bebawi book is chaotic but not confounding; it is more disconcerting in that the reader witnesses the suffering of such a kind and intelligent man in the midst of mania and delusion. Bebawi skillfully leads the reader through the meanderings of his mind and leaves the indelible impression of a man who did not deserve his fate. Too, the writing is obviously sympathetic toward those with mental illness without being condescending or overly dramatic in its representation.By presenting the argument against God within the context of the thoughts of a mentally ill person, Bebawi may be providing a “safe” place for such discussion. Some may dismiss the case that the character is developing as that of delusion, and yet there are those in the novel who find it remarkable. Following the main character as he gathers his information from the various religious texts, the reader may make a similar conclusion. Or, if religious, he or she might simply find a common ground with this man in his suffering and the rage caused by it. Bebawi leaves such a decision up to the reader and his or her conscience.This intricate story is so captivating with such vivid, detailed characters, that readers will fall in love with this book. Even within the space of a short novel, Sabri Bebawi is able to present difficult – and often private – questions of life, God, and reality in the harsh existence of a mentally ill man. Through smooth prose that expresses the man’s desires, Bebawi provides the reader with not necessarily the answer to whether or not God is guilty of crimes against humanity, but rather the context in which to begin answering those questions. The fictional space of the book provides only the beginning of this discussion, and yet it is a powerful beginning....

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ISBN : 9781491212035
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Number of Pages : 212 Pages
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God on Trial Reviews

  • April Wood
    2019-04-03 08:06

    I won this novel in a contest, and upon the Author learning I was a book reviewer, was asked to review this book. This in no way swayed my rating or opinion.For starters, I really liked this book for its subject matter. It held my attention and I was eager to turn the pages to find out what would happen next. Yesterday morning, I only planned to read a couple chapters, and wound up nearly finishing the entire book, (I was at 90%). I love it when a book captivates me to the point that I cannot put it down!With that being said, it isn’t particularly well written, and can certainly stand a round of editing. –(My Grammarly app is lighting up like a Christmas tree regarding the synopsis). Despite these problems, I was so intrigued by the subject matter of a schizophrenic man wanting to bring God to trial for crimes against humanity, that I didn’t care about the before mentioned issues.I loved the lawyer, Julianna; albeit a hallucination, still a fascinating character. I felt sympathy for Sophia, the wife, who supported her husband through his delusions and sought to get him help. The Author makes it clear whether or not “the disturbed man” is having a delusion or not, so the reader is able to determine if he is having an episode or if he is experiencing reality. -Thank goodness for that, or this would have been a very confusing read.Definitely worth a read, and the price is right at $1.99 for Kindle. :)Overall, I would recommend this read to fans of books where the protagonist is mentally ill and on a mission. -Such as Silver Linings Playbook.Full book review:

  • Shannon
    2019-04-04 11:50

    This is my review for the short novel, God on Trial by Sabri Bebawi. The opinions included are my own and were in no way influenced by anyone else.God on Trial is a very riveting story of a man and his descent into mental illness, specifically schizophrenia, and his decision to bring a lawsuit against God for crimes against humanity. The main character is a man of deteriorating health, both mental and physical, in his late 50's. He is nameless but not faceless. He has a very generic description that makes it easy for you to imagine him as a friend, relative or coworker. You can both sympathize and empathize with him. He is married to a woman he adores and has stayed by his side through all of his illnesses and takes care of him. She holds him through his seizures and does everything she can to make him comfortable and show that he's loved and cared for. He in return cares very deeply for her and is evident throughout the story.His life was not a pleasant one, especially in the beginning. He begins to blame God for much of his suffering and the suffering of mankind. He doesn't just limit his anger at one incarnation of God, but at the image of a vengeful and violent God. He begins to put together a brief that will bring God to trial in abesntia. He pulls out biblical verses that seem to support his claim that God has committed horrendous crimes against humanity and needs to be held accountable for those crimes. As he gathers the evidence he needs, his mind deteriorates. His life and health begin to fall apart. But even while you can tell that he is in the depths of a hallucination or in the grips of his schizophrenia, he is not ranting like a "typical" madman. His arguments are lucid and will resonate with anyone who has ever questioned the image of a vengeful God.The story is disturbing, throught-provoking, intelligent, compassionate, frightening and throughly enjoyable. The cover and the title intrigued me and I was hooked through the entire story. I was left with many questions and the story can definitely lead for some intersting discussions. I would definitely recommend this book to anyone who has ever questioned God and human suffering. The author really leaves it up to the reader to make their own decision. While sympathetic toward the main character, the author doesn't claim that he is right or wrong...just that he has a valid argument. Then it's up to us to decide.

  • Elizabeth Ehlen
    2019-04-15 12:52

    “His mind raced like a baboon on steroids”That pretty much sums up “God on Trial.” In his dramatization of a schizophrenic’s quest to hold God accountable for all the sins of humanity, author Sabri Bebawi explores some of the questions that leave many individuals - religious or not - struggling to come to grips with the world as we know it. If God is omniscient and loving, how can he allow abuses such as the main character endured such as childhood sexual assault, as well as global injustice like war or slavery? Indeed, one may ask how God could allow something like mental health conditions such as schizophrenia. Interestingly to me, the author immediately jumps to the position that A) God does exist - for how can you put to trial someone who does not and has never existed, even if you have to try Him in absentia and B) He is ultimately responsible for all the ills of the world, although no mention of Him having a hand in anything good in the world is ever addressed. I think that the main character’s mental health issues may be a bit of a crutch in this instance, because if anyone genuinely pursues legal action, anticipating the defense is a crucial step, even if the suit is filed in the fictional “International Court of Justice.” While I found the schizoprenia an interesting part of the character’s development, because it was blatant from very early on in the novel it made a lot of things easy to dismiss, including some of the chaotic ramblings of the character and perhaps some of the writing depth. I think I would have preferred for that to be a revelation at the end, just after the reader convinces himself that perhaps he has a point about God. In addition, the character suffering the effects of undiagnosed schizophrenia in his late fifties is a bit of a jump for anyone who has ever interacted with the mental health setting, as schizophrenia is well known as an early-onset disease, usually being diagnosed during early 20’s and if left untreated a schizophrenic individual is more likely to end up living in a prison or mental health institution rather than independently. As interesting as the subject matter is, I found the argument presented in a rather confusing way. Some of this could be attributed to the main character’s mental state, but as stated before this can only be a crutch for so long. The character descriptions of his hallucinatory friends are just that, basic character descriptions that an author would use when fleshing out bits of the story. Rather than revealing their nuances during the story he gives a basic description at the character introduction like, “He is a typical commissioner or inspector detective.” I also found it distracting when the author jumped from several points of view that were not the character’s hallucinations - for instance at the end the story began to be told from the detective’s point of view rather than the main character’s. There are also a few little clues to the author struggling a bit with English, which is not Bebawi’s first language, such as the name “Savanna” being spelled two different ways, Savana at the beginning and Savanna at the end. That being said, knowing that it is not his first language he does a good job navigating the format of fiction. The premise of putting God on trial is an interesting one, however I’m not sure that this book fully fleshes it out. The idea of fictionalizing it makes it more approachable, setting it in the mind of schizophrenic gives the reader a safe but ultimately easily dismissed space to contemplate, and the fact that basically all the evidence presented was a few verses in the Torah, New Testament and Qur'an leaves the reader wondering what exactly was the point of the story - that the idea is only contemplated by those with mental health issues or that fictional trials actually can help resolve issues? In the end basically it seemed that the point of schizophrenia running in families was made rather than the idea of prosecuting God is a valid notion.

  • Brittany
    2019-04-06 09:46

    Check out my blog to see Reviews of Books and Movies as well as Recipes and DIY projectsGod on Trial is written by Sabri Bebawi. It is mostly about a man going through a very painful and hard time in his life that has decided that God is to blame for all of the problems in the world and so he decides to put together a case to make God stand on trial, in absentia if required.The main character is an unnamed man who is going through some sort of delirium, likely dementia and/or schizophrenia. He goes back through his childhood (born in Egypt) currently residing in the US with his French wife. He relives certain events in his mind and meets with figures of his imagination to plan his case against God from a plethora of religions.The good aspects are that this is a very intriguing idea. The book is written in a very unique format with minimal names, and exploring life from the mind of a mad man which extremist views. The man could theoretical be many older gentleman. It is a nice quick short story. The negative aspects for me have a lot to do with the tone of the book. There is an obvious feeling of dissention against the US as a whole and definitely the military. The main character wants to lay blame on anything outside of himself and ultimately God. The book skips around a lot and can be confusing and hard to follow. I am not sure if this was done purposefully to try to show the madness in the man’s mind or not, but it took away from the flow of reading which constant start and stop. Overall I award the book with 3 stars. It was more exciting to read about than to actually read. The idea of the book is very intriguing and stands out, however the delivery was not as stellar as I would have liked. The constant jumping around without much cohesion made for spending a lot of time trying to figure out if you were reading about a past or current event. God on Trial does do an excellent job of painting the picture of a mad man though, and with some editing help this could come in a much prettier package. If you are into religion, spirituality, trials, fiction, mental illness, mystery, suspense, etc, than this book is for you. *I received a copy of this book for free in exchange for a fair and honest review.

  • Deborah Bean
    2019-04-19 12:01

    God on Trial is a work of fiction by Sabri Bebawi that takes you through one man’s decent into mental illness. The depth of this man’s illness comes into full light that makes the reader feel the pain and bewilderment of the main character and his wife. This is the first book that I have read where the main character has no name. You do not however need this man’s name to hear his story. His problems begin when he is a young boy. He is overcome with fever and cannot move. While he overcomes this he still has to deal with physical and sexual abuse as a young boy. These memories stay fresh in his mind as he drifts in and out of trance-like states. It is during the aftermath of an epileptic seizure that he gets the idea of putting God on trial. It is his opinion that the bible promotes hate and violence and these cannot be tolerated. With the help of a lawyer friend, that his wife is not able to see, he begins to build his case against God. The worse his mental illness gets, the more elaborate his hallucinations get. Tragedy befalls his wife and them him because of the voices he hears. I would give this book 4 out of 5 stars. While the writing sequence may seem erratic, you are actually getting a glimpse of what mental illness looks like to the person suffering from it. You can almost buy into his hallucinations. The reader will find themselves wanting to reach out and help this man and his wife. You cannot help but think that someone would have gotten him to the doctor sooner.This book does a great job of bring mental illness to the forefront of the readers mind without being derogatory to those who suffer from it. By allowing the reader an inside look into the mind of this character, it helps to push for a little tolerance for others. It also makes you think about what is really in the Bible.

  • Diane Coto
    2019-04-03 14:57

    from: if your reality was just that – a reality only known to you? What if you played the part of you as well as other people that no one else could see? You’re schizophrenic – and you’re dangerous. Such was the case of this male protagonist – an unnamed 57 year old English Professor. His illness had gone largely undiagnosed. He and his wife were deeply in love, but she begins to see that he is behaving oddly. The fact that he questioned God is not new. Even throughout the Bible, people had often questioned why they were suffering; or why certain things were allowed; or why the sinners flourished while the faithful remained poor.We’re given glimpses of his childhood. Terribly rough, but would it have caused schizophrenia? We were also provided with the fact that he was having seizures. It is more likely that the schizophrenia was caused by some medical condition. The ‘God on Trial’ issue could have actually been anything deemed important by the protagonist. The real issue in this story is the schizophrenia and its escalation and ultimate destruction. God on Trial was the protagonist’s focus. What didn’t work for me and what I found preposterous was that the sister, being in a well state of mind, would pursue the ludicrous trial to take God to task. I rated this 3 out of 5.

  • Jenny Hayworth
    2019-04-09 15:46

    The title intrigued me and as I progressed through the book I became more engrossed. The author writes from the perspective of a mentally ill man which I found fascinating, sad and captivating. His arguments supporting the main characters delusional state - to bring to trial God - for inciting death, hatred and violence amongst his followers - as evidenced by direct quotes from holy books of the worlds main religions are so well presented and thought out that regardless of what cultural or religious background one is from - they are questions that demand answers and that have plagued many thinking people for centuries. Only a few people question the truthfulness of the religion of their birth. This book will appeal to those with this questioning mind. If religion is more an accident of birth than of choice, then it truly is an indictment of humanity that so many use it to incite wars, hatred and division rather than for good, unity, love and inclusion. A book that leaves you thinking long after you finish it on existential questions as well as addresses the complexities of mental illness.

  • Elizabeth (Stuffed Shelves)
    2019-04-19 07:40

    A Short FictionI finished this book in one sitting, it was that interesting and engaging. It's a debatable subject, but the author makes it seem reasonable and feasible. The author clearly did a great deal of research making this book seem all that more creditable. The main character suffers from a mental illness, schizophrenia. Just like the rest of us, he is questioning God and his word. Hence the title, God on Trial. Being schizophrenic seems like a lot emotional up's and down's, and always questioning what's real and not real.You'll be taken on a journey where what's real and not real, is not always apparent or obvious. Bouncing back and forth between the paranoia hallucinations, and what's perceived as reality, you'll get to know the main characters on a very personal level.I found this to be a very entertaining read that was extremely eye opening. The book is controversial in a great way, it makes you think. The cover is interesting and makes me curious as to what is contained inside the book. There were no spelling or grammar errors that I saw. I give this book 5/5.

  • Charlotte Gerber
    2019-03-31 08:39

    God on Trial is a short story about a man and his slow descent into madness. In this madness, he attempts to hold God accountable for the ills of the world and the wrongs that he has suffered throughout his life. He builds a case against God, and since he has a varied religious background, he has plenty of ammunition for the prosecution.The story may be more about schizophrenia than about religion though. While the title lures the inquisitive in, the story is more about a man and his wife's struggle to deal with his mental illness. It is interesting to be pulled into a story where you aren't sure if what the character is experiencing is real, or a hallucination.Readers who enjoy thought-provoking fare will enjoy this book.

  • Ju Ephraime
    2019-04-17 08:48

    This short story, God on Trial, by Dr. Bebawi showed the devastating effect of schizophrenia on the human brain is so powerful that the mind seeks to put God on trial. The story moved back and forth between the main character's perceived reality and the paranoia and hallucinations that take over his mind. The author presented the work so brilliantly that I found myself questioning the reality of what I was reading. I came away from this story with a greater appreciation for the reality that had become the life of a personal friend of mine whose husband who suffers from paranoid schizophrenia. Well done, Dr. Bebawi.

  • Darlene
    2019-03-28 15:05

    Every once in awhile a novel "gets" to you and stays with you. This is one of those stories. I won this in a good reads give away and received my autographed copy a couple of days later. God on Trial is a portrayal of an unnamed professor who suffers from schizophrenia and blames God for all the bad in the world. I must admit I was curious about the title and expected a dry, lecture type of novel. The author Sabri Bebawi managed to write a thought provoking novel in a simple, enjoyable manner. Very fascinating read that I highly recommend.

  • David Morgan
    2019-04-17 11:57

    Is God guilty of crimes against humanity? Such are the musings of a man in the throes of mental illness. But does the author use the subjects mental illness as an out for for their, I think, valid question?

  • Sabri Bebawi
    2019-03-31 08:59